brebutterfly

Oh yeah, it’s that time again. I’ve let the fitness goals go and now it’s time to start. Thankfully, I am not starting over from the beginning again. Finally life has settled a little and I’ve developed the resolve to stick with this even when life fights me all the way. I decided not to post right away when I started going back. Oh man, is it hard to go some days, but on those days now I go knowing my mood will lift after about 15 minutes of excercise. I know that I will sleep well since I will experience physical exhausting. I know I will be too tired to freak out about much, cause frankly panic attacks take energy… and after running on an eliptical and biking for miles and miles, I simply haven’t got any energy left. Somedays I get frustrated that I am not seeing the pounds go down any faster. I can see my body changing sometimes, though at others I’m pretty sure that all of the changes are just in my head. But they aren’t other people see them too. In any case this is me starting again. Four pounds and an inch and a half off of my waist in the last two weeks. Now to just keep going.